This week has been insane!
On Tues night [or rather 3am weds morning) someone tried breaking into my apartment by climbing in through my balcony! I live on the second floor of my building and below me is a common lounge room that everyone/anyone can use in the buidling so if it was empty it would’ve been fairly easy for someone to climb past that unit upto to my balcony where I always sleep with my balcony door open as my apartment is so small it gets very hot if you don’t leave the door open.
I heard a banging noises on the balcony at 3am and looked up and there was some man standing there. I screamed like fuck. Thankfully my bf was with me and when the guy heard me scream he took off. We heard banging again as I guess the guy clambered back over the railing and took off. SCARIEST THING EVER.
I’ve been away from home since then as I just didn’t feel comfortable staying there. My bf has let me stay at his place which has been nice. On top of all of that I was sick with what must’ve been a stomach bug as I was nauseus, dizzy and throwing up constantly all week. In fact it was because of constantly having to run to the bathroom to be sick that I was even awake when that man came around and I heard him try to break in so at least one good thing came from being sick. I dread to think how it would’ve been had I been fine and sleeping at the time :/
Aw thankyou! It means so much when people send messages to me! I hope one day I won’t need the pills either but for now they’re what keeps me more level headed and not suicidal or depressed. I’m now on 25mg of Zoloft which I started on Fri :). I haven’t felt anything different yet but hopefully as the dosage increases so does my mood :). It does get hard to remember sometimes that my health is more important than a uni degree and I should just do things at my own pace rather than stressing about everyone else’s expectations. Thanks so much for the message :) xo